I loaaathe school

School sucks. I get teased, and go crazy. Like today... I just went psycho until I asked my teacher if I could just go to the orchestra room and play bass. So I practiced for a good 45 minutes nonstop with Capuzzi, Mozart, Liszt, and Saint-Saense. Some tough stuff... Kind of. I worked up a huge sweat and all the beginner's were WOAH like crazy. Makes me feel kinda cool. Top bassist at the school and everything. And the bassist in the room was one of my ex-students. Heh. I don't even teach anymore. Le sigh. There goes my paycheck. So like. I called this guy a jackass and then he screams, "OMG I'M GOING TO GO CUT MYSELF NOW" Stab. Made me cry... Lunch sucked, Monty was sarcastic and hurt my feelings, Jake was all like... "Go awaaaay." No one wants me around. Tra la la. God, why are you TESTING ME?! But I'll follow through. I have faith. And I didn't cut today, even though I reallllllly wanted to. But I did punch a brick wall a bunch. >.<

Phwoar. And I might be moving to Ohio or Louisiana. If I'm lucky, I'll stay in Texas. *sigh* What kind of orchestras are there in Louisiana and Ohio that I can get into?! Here, there's Rice, HYS, FBSO, Andrew, I'm loved for being a musician. Rice and then the Houston Symphony is my dream. It's what I've always wanted. *sigh* What to do? Just. Shoot. Me. :D

Oh yeah. I've developed bulimia. And I'm addicted to diet pills. And I feel like crap all the time.

HIP HIP HOORAY!

School, Feelings, and my Passion

School. Sucks. /kick I'm pulling an all-nighter because I had to define 47 words on WWII (very depressing), do 6 WB pages in science, Do a major project for science, which I'm not even finished with,and study for a U.S. History test in 7 hours that I know NOTHING about. Joy.

I get teased in gym because everybody thinks Krista, Kaci, and I are lesbians. It's the whole "you-sit-down-somewhere-and-everyone-within-a-5-foot-radius-scoots-away-and-screams" Yeah... And I don't knowhow Krista and Kaci handle it... Maybe I'm the only one that notices. And I'm not a lesbian. I might be bi, but guys > girls. Kind of. Maybe. Okay... I don't know. Serious relationship wise = male, anything sexual = female. I wouldn't mind having a serious relationship with a chick if she was all for it, and I don't mind guys=touchy feely... And I've had a chick crush before... But like. I personally think that physically, I'm more attracted to girls.

ANYWAYS! >.>

SO!
HYS: Mozart - Impresario concerto

Crazy eigth note runs. Fun fun fun. I actually really like it. :)

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

BAH! This is a piece of class-A CRAP!!!!

Ashokan Farewell

I think I fell asleep playing this. The only good feed back is that basso gets some SOlO YO and we develop a nice rich tone background music kinda thingy. :)

FBSO: Les Preludes - Liszt
God, what a pain in the ASS. The slurs are killing me. I'm having trouble trying to balance finger position and speed and bow speedin the upper register. Le sigh.

Grieg's Piano Concert op. 16

OMG!! I've loved this pieceever since I heard the Houston Symphony play it. Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous.

Mozart - Piano Concerto no. 23

No comment. Seriously though... Can Mozart have written any more freaking piano concertos?! Not that I'm dissing him... He was a prodigy and deserves some serious honor. But he wrote pain in the ass bass parts (*cough cough* MARRIAGE OF FIGARO *sputter*) and I've played three or two of his piano concertos. At least they're nice though... They just kind of get repetative.

And then a HARP concerto. Everybody OOH AND AHH now. Haven't heard it with the harp yet, but it's got a nice orchestral accompainment. None of that BAND stuff. It's Three Danses by Debussy. Mmm, Debussy. <3

SOLO: L'Elephant arranged by George Vance.

HYS audition: Adagio from Sonata no. ? by Antoniotti or whatever for my slow piece and then Dragonetti's Waltz for my fast piece, which sounds DECENT on my current bass, but if Andrew let's me borrow a spare bow and I have my new bass <3333, it should be pretty damn spiffy. I got the technique and everything. (So she says...)

And then! Summer camp!! W007

AND! This is what I want to prepare me for sight reading

ORCHESTRAL EXCERPTS

*2432 Volume I (ZIMMERMANN) $19.75 Contents:

Volume I (ZIMMERMANN) Orchestral Excerpts from Classical & Modern Works covering a wide range of Symphonic Repertoire. Contents :
BACH, J.S. Brandenburg Concerto No. 2 ;
BACH, J.S. Magnificat ;
BEETHOVEN Symphony No. 8 ;
BEETHOVEN Overture "Consecration of the House" ;
BIZET L'Arlesienne. Suite No. 1 ;
BORODIN Symphony No. 2 ;
BRAHMS Symphony No. 2 ;
BRAHMS Piano Concerto No. 1 ;
BRUCKNER Symphony No. 7 ;
DEBUSSY La Mer ;
DVORAK Symphony No. 4 ;
ELGAR Enigma Variations ;
FRANCK Symphony in D Minor ;
HAYDN Symphony No. 104 "London" ;
LISZT Les Preludes ;
MENDELSSOHN Symphony No. 3 "Scotch" ;
MOZART Symphony No. 40 in G minor ;
MOZART Overture "The Marriage of Figaro" ;
MOZART Overture "The Abduction from the Seraglio" ;
MUSSORGSKY Night on the Bare Mountain ;
SCHUBERT Symphony No. 7 ;
SCHUMANN Symphony No. 2 ;
SIBELIUS Symphony No. 1 ;
STRAVINKSY L'Histoire du Soldat ;
TCHAIKOVSKY Overture-Fantasy "Romeo and Juliet" ;
WEBER Overture "Euryanthe"

Now, would that not be an amazing book. And if Andrew were to add that to his wonderful collection of books, he could embarass the HELL out of Jake. :P Throw some Mussorgsky in his face. MUAHAHA. But yeah. I really want that book to prepare me for my HYS audition, because I MUST GET INTO SYMPHONY!!! *eye twitch*

I had the most inspirational, musical moment ever (aside from seeing Romeo and Juliet live) on Sunday. I walked out of my HYS rehersal room (Sinfonietta) and Symphony is in the auditorium playing. I stop dead in my tracks. Why? They are playing the one and only song that I literally SHED TEARS when I first heard it in 6th grade.

Cello Concerto in E minor Op. 85 Adagio; Moderato Composed by Edward Elgar

It has the most beautiful theme in the world and just.... Gah. No words to express it. I would give up bass in an instant if somehow magically, POOF, I knew this piece on cello. Yes. I would play cello if I knew this piece.

And I'm going to end on this note. I'm practicing so much lately. I've regained my passion for the rich texture of double bass.

Tra la la

So. Today was a laaazy day. I basically did nothing. Go me. I kept waking up around 4 o'clock, so I ate some chocolate and then went back to bed and woke up around 9. And that was when my dad started. I watched TV, ate some more, chilled on the computer, ate some more, played bass, ate, ate pizza, computer, community service. Stuff like that. Tomorrow will be busy enough for the entire weekend though. First church, then 3 WONDERFUL hours of community service (Ugh. That'll teach me never to smoke in school again.), Houston Youth Symphony rehersal, and then Crossfire. And then SLEEP!!!! Wonderful sleep. What is it with teenagers? All they do is eat and sleep. I really don't like it. I'm tired all the freaking time and it leaves me to resort to caffeine and diet pills. Le sigh. Another thing that's bothering the out of me is that fact that... Oh, I don't know. I'VE GAINED 33LBS SINCE I WAS PUT ON THIS ANTI-PSYCHOTIC. I should sue them... I weigh 164! I'm fat! I was in the 130s!! And then BOOM. Next thing I know, I'm past the 150 mark. This make me want to cry... But yeah. Tomorrow we get new music for HYS. The concert for FBSO (an all symphony I'm in) is kind of me. Mainly Les Prelude by Liszt. But we're also playing Grieg's piano concerto which I LOOOOVE. And today, I think dad ordered me the sheet music to Prayer by Ernest Boch, originally written for cello, but I've heard it played on bass and it doesn't seem TOO difficult. I also want to order Chanson Triste by Koussevitzsky, but I don't need it right now. FBSO concert is in March and HYS next season audition is in March. And in March, is my private lesson recital. Urga. But then I'm done for a while. Today on Ebay I found a bass clef charm. It's soooo 1337. Lol. Anyways, I think I'm going to go for tonight and chat on KDX. Later gator.