Get Over Him!

OMG, I can't believe Kaci. She went up to Monty and was like, "Get back together with Victoria!!" Phwoar. But seriously... It pisses me off because yesterday he was like, "You don't know much do you?" And I thought he could be the one I could run to when I felt like no one loved me. And now I'm really insecure because I'm scared he doesn't love me anymore because he never loved me in the first place. Or he's just really finally realizing that I AM stupid and I'm getting fat but the last time I talked to him on the phone... Eh. Nevermind AHAHAHA! I went up to him and was like What's up. He said watching the movie. I asked if he meant he wanted me to leave him alone and he said yes. Geez.

Just give me something to love. I want you. You gave me a chance and I totally blew it. I'm sitting here now and I'm the only one to blame. I know I've broken your heart time after time, but if I could just have opne more chance, my life would be complete. I feel so lonely. Oh God, I'm so ------- lonely. Will somebody please hold me hand and make the hurt go away?

ANYWAYS! Enough of the rant. Haha. People in my broadcasting class want to see me type. Muahaha. I be 1337. Anyways. Lunch was stupid. I ate 12 little powdered donuts. FATTY! Tomorrow I go on an all fruit and veggie diet. No pizza tomorrow, even though it's movie night. Le sigh. Anyways. Jin's bitching at me about how I don't look perfect. :*(

When I get older. I'm getting liposuction.